The License Plate

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As Louis and I drove our 1993 Toyota 4Runner to the DMV, sadness tugged at my mind. 

“Do we really have to get California plates?” I asked. 

“Not if we don’t mind getting a huge fine for still having Montana plates after we’ve lived here this long,” Louis said. 

I knew that would be the answer, but I had to ask it one last time. I love the new home that we have recently moved into—a little gray house in a small city, within walking distance of Louis’s school, with a yard and a garage and a porch and room for Bella. I am happy here. But the Montana plates belonged on the 4Runner. They had graced the old car for thirteen years.

We made the mistake of not booking an appointment at the DMV, so we were there for hours. And at each station we visited within the DMV, we were told we’d have to turn in the Montana plates. 

“But why?” I asked Louis.

“I don’t know. I got to keep my Montana plates when I switched the Civic’s. I guess they changed the rules.”

One of the women at one of the myriad desks gave us a tool with which to unscrew the old plates and attach the new, and I lagged behind Louis as we walked into the parking lot and toward the old 4Runner. He bent to the back of the car and began to remove the rusted screws.

I was wholly unprepared for the tears that rose in my throat and dropped onto my face, and suddenly I was eight again. 

We got the new license plate for the cars. It isn’t that pretty. It is blue and white and has a skull on it. And snowflakes at the top, just three. The Montana on it is in big letters. Montana, The Treasure State, it says on my postcards. I am always looking for the treasures in the treasure state. And one of my postcards says Big Sky, just like it says by the skull. Big Sky Country. I think I like this cold scary license plate. It matches what’s happening right now: snow, lots of it. Dad parked the 4Runner on a snowbank in our yard and that’s crazy cool. I’ve heard it snows here in July some years. I love this place already, even though on my first day here I ran into a birdhouse and had to get two stitches. There’s a creek behind the house, and a field with a horse and donkey in it. I live in the country now. I am a country girl, just like Laura Ingalls Wilder. 

And all those thoughts swallowed me. I knew that I could not give the plates to the DMV people, which were cold and scary in a completely different way than the license plate was to me when I was eight. 

“Geez! The screws are so old that they just broke in half.” Louis held the ancient screw so I could see it. “What’s wrong?”

“I’m sorry. I can’t believe I’m crying about this. But I can’t give the plates to the DMV.”

Louis looked down at the plate, and I noticed that the three snowflakes were not snowflakes at all. They were three 0s, for the year 2000. “We can ask them if it’s really necessary. I need a smaller tool for this, so let’s go in there and ask before we take the front plate off.”

Louis asked the woman what he had told me he would ask.

“You need to turn them in,” she said, her voice bored, a hint of annoyance slipping into it.

“But why? I’ve kept old license plates before,” I asked, angry now and trying not to show it.

“They changed the rules. You need to give them to me.”

Who are ‘they’? I thought, giving the woman my best I’m-trying-not-to-yell-at-you glare. I was afraid I’d cry again if I didn’t.

“Well, we can’t get the front one off. We need a smaller tool. Do you have one?” Louis asked. 

“We only have the ones we gave you.” The woman snatched the Montana license plate from Louis’s hand and let it fall to the floor like she was throwing a bag full of dog poop into a dumpster. It gave a sharp metal scream as it hit the concrete ground. “Don’t worry about the other one,” she said, so gruffly I thought at first that she was telling me snap my sentimental ties to the Montana plates. 

Louis and I walked outside once more. “What did she say about the front one?” I asked.

“That we can keep it. Let’s go—we have to find a shop. Half of the screw is in the hole and it won’t come out.” 

“Thank you,” I said. “I’m sorry for being all crazy about this. I just didn’t want to give up my last piece of tangible Montananess forever.” I had loved letting people think I was still attached to Montana in some way, loved smiling at other Montana-plate people on the freeway. That was over, now, but I had one plate to keep.

Louis looked at me and took my hand. “You don’t know that it’s forever. You might get a Montana plate again someday.”

He smiled, and so did I, and our common dream danced in our imaginations.

He gave me the license plate a few minutes later, a piece of metal rippled and cracked by blizzards and hail and sun and rain, by eleven years of fickle, beautiful Montana. And I hung it on the wall in our office a few days later, that I may never forget the eight-year-old girl and the eleven years that formed her into present-day me, that I may never forget our dream.

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Today I’m linking up with Kirsten Oliphant and the Not So (Small) Stories community! This week’s prompt is ‘memory’ or ‘dream’. Join us! http://kirstenoliphant.com/2014/05/27/small-stories-tenth-edition/  

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16 thoughts on “The License Plate

  1. I’ve always wanted to visit Montana, it’s Blue Sky and landscape wonders. You’ve captured that feeling again, intertwined with the longing of growing up, being attached, then dislodged… and dreaming of something better.

    Thanks for sharing!

    • I think many of us can relate to this but with different places, like NY for you. It’s difficult to leave a place you love. I’m glad your husband loves Montana–it’s an amazing place.

  2. I’m with you– I would really get bugged by this!!! We have old plates from when I was a kid in Virginia, but I’m not sure more recently as we haven’t really switched. I was kind of hoping you’d take the plates and run, but I’m glad you providentially couldn’t get that one off. 🙂 I bet it’s some government racket and they’re selling them to antique stores. Good for you getting to keep yours!

  3. We didn’t even think of that until after. We totally could have run off with the plates! But at least I got to keep one. I know–I see no reason for them to keep them! Unless to sell them to gas stations and, like you said, antique stores 😉

  4. Oh how I can relate to this! Last year saw the Oregon plates be changed to Kansas and it just felt so wrong. Not that I hate where we live, I just felt special having that affinity with the rare Oregon plate that drives by us here, and yes, the memories. Of course, if you’re in Kansas with a car-top-carrier then you’re probably a misplaced northwesterner, so I still have that sometimes!

  5. It’s always sad to move somewhere new even if you like where you move to. We have a bike rack on our Civic, but our 4Runner no longer bears any signs of Montana. And other cars around here have bike racks anyway…thanks for commenting! 🙂

  6. I KNOW we have a Montana plate left…I put the new Arizona one on the back of the van and got confused three weeks later when I saw a van with Montana plates that looked just like our van pull into our driveway…I realized that Arizona has one plate and Montana has two ;).

  7. When I moved to NC, I had to turn my Maryland plates in before I could cancel my Maryland insurance. But I actually had to mail them back to to the DMV in Md. Anyway, it’s funny how a small item can take on such a symbolic weight. I’m glad you can hold onto that memory and hopefully make it back one day!

  8. I guess it’s hard to give up something when so many memories are attached to it. I don’t seem to have that problem with material things, but have had it with others, like the music I used to listen to.

  9. Oh, interesting! I’ve never given up on listening to music I once listened to, and I do know how it is attached to memories. But material things…oh, material things. I could have a warehouse filled with all the things I would love to keep. But I do not need to be a hoarder to remember good moments, so I just keep some things.

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